I have had such a hard time in my life figuring out the way the world works. My boyfriend is always unhappy and it seems anything I do is never ever good enough for him. I wish that I could get my stuff together and do better each day, but so far I haven’t been able to. I sure do hope that things start to look up for me because I am getting tired of the same ol same ol.
Have you ever felt that way? I bet you have, I know that it’s a pain in the butt when you feel this way, but sometimes that’s the way it goes. I have been seeing my psychiatrist just to talk to her and see if she can help me out. She wants to give me medicine but I don’t really want to do anything like that. I don’t know if I start taking the medicine maybe it can help me. I am not sure though because I don’t want to start taking it and have the bad side effects either.
My brother died last year in a car accident. Ever since that happened I have been feeling this way. I feel like there is nothing to live for. One day things might start to look up though, if I just keep praying. Church has been the only place that I can find comfort. I know that things are going to get better and that I will miss my brother less and less as time goes on. At least that’s what they say, though I have to admit I don’t think I will ever feel that way. I hope that I can get myself going on a better road soon. School is going well, I just have to stick with it.
Anyway that’s my feelings for the day. Anyone who cares to read them can read them. I am just doing this as a therapuetic exercise. Lets see how well I can stick with it!
Kim The Dreamer